Come admire me or sleep, sleep, sleep Cause there's nothing like the sheets for cold, cold feet You can close your eyes it'll be just fine And later, when I die, you can waste my time "I get it, you're sad, why say something like that?" Well, I've never been bad, I guess you have. I get it, you're mad, you won't see me laugh Doubt me if you can, but I'm a serious man.

So unlike me To be so soft Tread here lightly Cause it's my call, or not at all Give me a ride, give me a ride, I can't find Take me outside, take me outside, I won't mind Hope you know how to soften, come on out of the closet to get used Oh we know what your problem is, we'll find you a closet that fits you Don't remind me That I'm not sure Don't stand beside me Cause I'm not her, or what's the word? Tell me a lie, tell me a lie, it's alright Take me outside, take me outside, I won't mind Hope you know how to soften, come on out of the closet to get used Oh we know what your problem is, we'll find you a closet that fits you Why is it so easy to lie I'm harder to find (Life's such a hassle and I'm such an asshole) I'm harder to find when it's time to decide

Pages on the table, Stories that I thought I thought I fell About how it felt. I still feel it in my knees, So my lungs take the pressure off my feet. Able from the cradle, Spitting out how good it feels Or how I deal. I'm still dealing with the speed, But my fingers feel so good holding my keys So I'm still speeding Til I don't notice what I would ignore Yeah I'm still speeding Til having fun isn't fun anymore If you want to see me gone Just don't go. I'll get tired enough, I get sick of this stuff, I'll go home. Faded understatement, Playing up how fine I seem, Or down, I mean. I'm still reeling from the steam And the thought that it doesn't make me clean Latent explanation, Apologize for all I want, For what's my fault, Yeah, I can do it in my sleep, Grinding my teeth against the pressure of my dreams So yeah, I'm speeding Til I don't notice what I would ignore Yeah I'm still speeding Til having fun isn't fun anymore If you want to see me gone Just don't go. I'll get tired enough, I get sick of this stuff, I'll go home.

I don't want for you to be sorry I don't want for you to feel bad I'm just tired of feeling sorry I don't deserve to feel like that We're just trying, trying to be friendly We're just trying to be less confused We're just crying, cause none of your business We refuse to feel sorry for you If you want to see me go Just don't go I get tired enough, I get sick of this stuff I'll go home You're so sorry you're not entertaining You're so sorry I like to be cruel I'm a nice guy, now watch me ignore you I'm so sorry you tried to be cool The names I try, try to remember The names I try, try to forget We're not friends cause I don't deserve it Most people don't understand that yet If you want to see me go Just don't go I get tired enough, I get sick of this stuff I'll go home

I belong to you It wouldn't take a lot to prove Leave for a day or two And see if I move I belong to you The scene is not too hard to shoot Film for a day or two And see what I do I belong to you I promise I'll be hard to lose Try for a day or two And see if you do I belong to you I presume you don't presume Lie here for an hour or two And see if it's true

I can't stand out when it's all I have I can't stand out of my shoes, in fact When the dew of nothing new's the only thing I have I can't do the things I do that make me feel less bad That's so sad, I guess I don't really want it that bad Where'd I leave my part? It can't be far, I didn't go far. I can't tell me apart From kids with cash who don't want it that bad. Who am I supposed to blame When nobody knows my name? I'm so bothered by what you might say HOw may times can it not go my way? There's a dog on the lawn that just won't go away And this closet of hobbies is embarrassing, I can't stay and that's okay, you don't even know my name Where'd I leave my part? It can't be far, I didn't go far. I can't tell me apart From kids with cash who don't want it that bad. Who am I supposed to blame When nobody knows my name? And no matter what you'll never take that from me I take things father than my eyes can see, and I can see that But am I doing this wrong? Have I been at this too long?

I heard you were coming, so I asked you There's no signal when you're writing in the bathroom Yeah, people always talk, and oftentimes they're wrong I just wish that they'd say more. Cause talk is always cheap and it's always fine with me It's better than a name on my door that was never important People always say that I don't come through, that's true But people always say that I don't love you, and I do Someone should kill this verse, cause no one deserves these words: I'll never be important and it's all their fault But you'll never fuck with me cause I'll never get what you need I heard people laughing, so I laughed too I took ten tabs of acid just to pass through Yeah, I learned how to quake, and that's a lot to say I worry that you'll see that But that's just what we do, we learn to make our moves While people offer pats on the back and a label to point at People always say that I don't come through, that's true But people always say that I don't love you, and I do Someone should kill this verse, cause no one deserves these words: I'll never be important and it's all their fault But you'll never fuck with me cause I'll never get what you need

Write what you wanted to write. If you're writing what you're writing even if it's out of spite it'll sound like a very bad night just like every single summer seems to bleed into a fourth of July. Say what you wanted to say. If what you're really saying something, than nothing short of a symphony plays like a beat-up tape: you love and know what's coming next but the best that you get is technically plain. I'm a fan of lying, so don't stand behind me, I'm talking, I'm talking to you. Cause I can step backwards, yeah I'm a little bastard, I'm never singing the truth. Safe, so especially safe. When what's better makes your head hurt and isn't said well or cleverly, Say it like it's not that way, cause people understand energy, better they understand what we make. Take what you wanted to take, because asking is too passive, if you act casual they laugh at you. Maybe we're just born that way, but as often as I'm talking I'm stalking profit and compliments paid.

Be more enthused, be more enthused, be more enthused than me I'm boring you, I'm boring you, I'm boring you to sleep And I know what you mean Faded too long, body not strong, but we don't have to talk about it Don't go anywhere, there are people downstairs, and I don't want to move around them Don't stop, don't stop until your heart stops, your heart will stop too. I woke up knowing that I wanted you, I wanted you, I wanted you. You're holding me, you're holding me cause I don't wanna fall They're trying to get a hold of me, I don't answer their calls, I got no sleep at all Faded too long, body not strong, but we don't have to talk about it Don't go anywhere, there are people downstairs, and I don't want to move around them Don't stop, don't stop until your heart stops, your heart will stop too. I woke up knowing that I wanted you, I wanted you, I wanted you.

I don't get to be awake anymore I know, I know That it's never ever been my fault That I don't owe that to anyone I'm so, so silent, I'm so, so private sometimes But I like being silent, I like trying to hide it, it's mine I don't want to cry, I don't want to complain, I don't want to be misunderstood But honestly, to me, everything seems much harder than it should be I don't get to see my face anymore I know, I know That I don't actually have to be sure But I'd rather know, I'd rather know, I'd rather know I'm so cold with privacy, please don't lie to me now I only try to please, why point out irony now? I don't want to cry, I don't want to complain, I don't want to be misunderstood But honestly, to me, everything seems much harder than it should be Sad, sad song, but it never really mattered I'm so glad I caught you, everybody wants you, so why don't you talk to me?

Warm, warm, where my hands should be Make sure I don't worry about when you're gonna leave And I know it's hard, I know it's hard But it's alright, I love you, I love you Turn, turn, turn around and make me smile Make sure I don't worry, make sure I don't deserve to die And I know it's hard, I know it's hard But it's alright, I love you, I love you I always get it backwards Shame, shame, shame to me, oh boy! Blame me for being what I shouldn't, what I couldn't avoid And I know it's hard, I know it's hard But it's alright, I love you, I love you Care, care, care for me, please don't mind Don't mind my being lost, being so so far behind And I know it's hard, I know it's hard But it's alright, I love you, I love you I always get it backwards And now I'm falling faster

Barely is barely, caring isn't hard to doubt When no one can hear us there's a weird disappearance Talking is talking, it's something hard to live without Typically I'm tongue-tied - more specifically I'm unwise Hardly ever tardy, hardly ever without cue Happiness for bastards, oh the happy spiral faster Mad about madness, insanity is hard to choose Except when it's natural. Except when it's tactful. I don't want to lie love, it's hard for me to brighten up It's hard for me to brighten up, it's hard for me

I watched you try to care for me and shrugged. The atheist sees shooting stars like weighting dice or counting cards I saw myself say things that weren't enough To honestly apologize, a gin of truth in tonic lies My shoe is ever-slowly shifting shape. Though some would like to think it could Just end up on the other foot, It simply wouldn't fit both feet that way. And both perspectives fit me well, the guy who waits way too long to tell the truth So pack the car in silence and we'll go We should only say goodbye, anything else would be a lie Cause how are you supposed to take me home When you don't love me anymore? When we don't love this anymore? I'm straining all the rain from what I drink To minimize what passion rules, synthetic over natural. So hopefully the cuts will barely sting When nothing but a contrivance escapes from my Much-too-soft skin My dreams are all from characters and films Cause not-real people dream a lot, They know the noble thing to want But all this stuff just turns, returns to you Cause if you aren't what noble is It's clear to me that my life's been pissed away. I'm straining all the rain from what I drink To minimize what passion rules, synthetic over natural. So hopefully the cuts will barely sting When nothing but a contrivance escapes from my Much-too-soft skin

My face is tried by "hard-to-find" It's wrong to cry by yourself I lay and lie about the time And wasted life under my belt But oh, it's been hardly a year And hardly anything's changed And oh, it's been hardly a year The shelf clutters, but goes un-arranged And you've gone running off as a shade of myself, As some presence I felt but can't know. And I am hemmed in, relentless. This pain is mine, it strains sometimes But helps to find something real The will to strive and versa-vice Is stuck inside of my heel. And oh, it's been hardly a year And hardly anything's changed And oh, it's been hardly a year The shelf clutters but goes un-arranged And you've gone running off with some shade of myself With some presence I felt but can't know And I am hemmed in, relentless.

Columbus day comes The Ottomans fold The planes in Berlin cease to fly And we were all told that the price of our souls Was more than we could ever buy The trains come on time The bills get paid And enveloped and stamped and cashed Columbus day comes and everyone's done With everything in the past Someone somewhere would have said by now If something that we did was wrong If it makes you feel sad that some things went bad Then you don't have to sing along But I was taught right Yeah, you were taught right Don't act as if you've learned a thing Cause every damn time it just don't feel right You crumple from the pain it brings I put my pants on one leg at a time My house is not a home, in fact I'm owed what you'd call close to nothing at all Compared to what I owe them back My wife loves me, I love her back, Love is shared in family But the money gets short, so all I afford Is three quarters of what she loves me We live in this place, We broke our chains, Our people took our freedom back Some people were black, and we feel bad about that But all that stuff is in the past On an October wind Three ships came in For accidents we're truly blessed God is good, yeah I'm good too As good as any accident gets I got things I want And a goddamned right A right that will forever last Columbus day comes and everyone's done With anything in the past Felt so, so blue Back in '92 When everything but me just died And we were all told that the price of our souls Was more than we could ever buy